Divorce

I don't want a divorce but I need one. It would have been nice to have made a better decision about whom to spend my life with but I had no idea at the time. I tell myself that I did what I believed was best for me at the time but do I really believe that? Perhaps. All I know is that I'm going through the coulda, woulda, shoulda. I should have married better. I would have married better if I (insert excuse here). I could have...blah, blah, blah. Bottom line is, I am separated, I need a divorce and I have to deal with the situation as it is right now. I'm living at home with my parents. This is good for me but has drawbacks. I don't know if I'm ready to be on my own right now because I have so much healing to do. I can feel myself growing, changing, evolving and I'm very cool with that. I can honestly say that I like myself, more than I ever have before. I am looking forward to my future. God has something good for me and He is preparing me for it. I'm not ready for it now and I know this. I will allow Him to shape me, mold me and bless me in ways I can't comprehend. It is so awesome that He is so good and He loves me so much that He puts up with me and keeps me even when I'm not being the best person I can.